Reclaimed (A Knights Rebels MC)

"Somewhere along the way, I woke up completely lost and overwhelmed. And every day, it gets harder and harder to deal."This is novella in River Savage's Knights Rebels MC series is about Phoenix 'Nix' Knight, his wife, Kadence, and their experience following the birth of their daughter, Harlow.Nix and Kadence were THAT couple, they deeply loved each other, they were clearly in lust with each other and they were totally in sync with one another, two halves of one soul. It was a beautiful relationship to watch unfold, and to this day, their story as told in the first book of this series, Incandescent, is one of my favorites. But, as happens more often than is talked about, following the birth of their daughter, Kadence's first child, she suffers from extreme postpartum depression. Nix, in his quest to reclaim the wife he so desperately misses, battles a force he doesn't understand, emotions he's unsure how to navigate and a surprising blow to his confidence in himself as a husband.Kadence is lost in a sea of hopelessness and self loathing, in a constant battle with herself over her perceived failures as a mother. The fact that she is not failing at anything, that what she is feeling is fueled by the hormones that feed her depression, is completely lost on her. She cannot find her way out of the darkness that consumes her entirely. Nix, so strong and a true alpha man to his core, is desperate to drag his wife back into the light. He is hurt, he is lonely, he is scared and he misses his wife. He is worried, and he does not like the shell of a woman she has become. He questions himself, and his confidence falters. He finally emotionally pushes Kadence hard to talk to him, and with his proverbial hand extended, he begs her to reach for it, and thankfully, blessedly, she does. She finally shares her pain with Nix, the thoughts, doubts and self-recriminations that cloud her mind stealing her confidence and causing her to question her judgment. It is the first step in a very long road to recovery."I'm not doing good, Nix."Nix did not react with anger or disappointment; no, he held his wife and got her help. He was a pillar of strength and consistency, and his love saw her through those many, many months to the other side. He did this for her even as he was dealing with the repercussions of her emotions and the toll they took on him. Oh yes, Ms. Savage did not spare one single truth in what is the reality of the situation for a family with a new baby dealing with the mother's PPD. She hit it dead-center, raw and spot-on, and this story was amazing in it's accuracy, excruciating in it's pain, and finally brilliant in it's recovery.This was such a heartbreakingly beautiful story. There is so much truth and reality in Kadence's experience, that I openly wept and sobbed loudly, shaking, as I read the first four chapters. This is no light and easy read, it is rooted firmly in real-life. This issue is one of the swept under the rug secrets of motherhood that no one talks about out of shame and fear, and Ms. Savage picked up that rug and shook it hard. The real beauty of this story is in Kadence summoning the courage to let Nix in to her thoughts, fears and shame, sharing with him what she's feeling and what is going on in her head.As someone who suffered from the very same severe and debilitating PPD for an extended period of time like Kadence did, I can tell you that what this character went through was her reality, and I know this because I felt those same things. Ms. Savage captured this issue from the first person and spouse's perspectives so precisely and vividly.I cannot stress how well written, detailed and realistic a story Ms. Savage has given us. It hurt to read, but in true River Savage form, she healed us in the end with the blinding beauty of Nix and Kadence's love for each other. Thank you, River, for giving this topic a voice. Thank you for doing it so eloquently and carefully. Thank you for staying true to yourself, your fans, the Knights Rebels and Nix and Kadence in the process. This is a gorgeous, gut wrenching true love story as could only be told through the voice that is the immensely talented River Savage. Well done, River, well done.

It's something we all know exists, but it's not something that is often spoken about in the books we read. Come to think of it, I've not read a single book (or novella) that has postpartum depression as the main focus. I guess a lot of authors don't want to create that kind of shit-storm in their stories.I for one am glad it was River that wrote this story. She is an author who doesn't shy away from the ugliness that life throws at us all; instead, she drags us through hell and then shows us that there really is happiness on the other side. Seriously this woman can write anything and it will be a 5 star #OneClick read.In Incandescence, we fall in love with Nix for this dirty mouth, his fierce love for his woman and of course, all that hot alpha-ness that just drips from him. Kadence and her sassy mouth, no crap-taking attitude had me with a serious girl crush. In Reclaimed, we see a different side to these two.Kadence is a newly married woman to The Nix Knight and a mother to Z and new baby, Harlow.She should be on top of the world, right? Wrong.Kadence isn't bonding with Low and she doesn't understand why. Motherhood has dragged her into the dark depths of depression where not only does she fear she's failing as a mother and wife, but that perhaps this was a mistake.She doesn't want to be with her daughter more than absolutely necessary, and the thought of having to be alone with Low spikes a fear so powerful, it practically leaps off the page. being When Nix forces her to look after Low on her own in a last attempt to try and bring her back, her anxiety hits rock bottom.All too often the fathers struggles are forgotten when a mother goes through postpartum depression. Thankfully, River shows just how hard it is on the husbands too. How much of a strain it places on the marriage, and how Love isn't a fight, but something worth fighting for.Nix loves his family fiercely. His loyalty and devotion to Kadence shines through like a beacon in this dark time.He is falling apart. He feels like he has failed his family, failed his wife. Kadence may be there in body, but he has lost the woman he fell in love, her fire and sass has been put out and he has no idea how to get her back.She isn't the only one lost thought.Nix has lost part of himself over the last few months while he has been treading water, keeping them both a float.Nix will stop at nothing to bring her back to him, to bring them both back.In true River style, you can expect things to heat up and leave you hot and bothered. This novella may have a lot of pain and self discovery, but as always, you are left laughing your butt off and begging for more.Let's not forget, this is a Knights Rebels novella, meaning we get a little fix of Sy, Holly, Jesse, Beau and Brooks.There is always a light at the end, even if it is in the form of an alpha biker with something small and blue ;)

Dearest River,Simply put thank you. Thank you for taking such a sensitive topic and making it okay. Okay to admit “Hey that was me!” As I sit here and type this letter I’m honestly in tears, crying for a past I over came, crying at this amazing novella that has resonated so deeply into my soul and being. I’m solo (hehe) in awe how your ability to take our discussions and turn certain tid-bits from them into something beautiful. Something I’m not ashamed to admit I went thought.I can’t review Reclaimed I can only relate, respect and be completely in love with it. I thought I loved Nix and Kadence before, but holy cow do I now. No one in the Kights MC will ever top them for me now, not after witnessing them overcoming this! Together, as a team!Mr. and Mrs. Knight are truly an inspiration!Love truly does prevail. In fiction… and in life.I cannot tell you how so proud of you I am. Proud of you for caring enough to research this sensitive topic; always being compassionate, taking the time to ask the right questions, worrying about timelines, accuracy, feelings, and the emotions. And oh boy did you ever kill the emotions part. I often felt like I was looking into my own life, experiencing Kadence’s turmoil while wanting so much to reach in and grab and comfort the incredible man that is Nix, the man who stood by like a rock waiting for his love to return.Even after having read it a few times now, I can’t not think back to certain scenes without getting completely emotional and teary. I’m in awe of your ability to take an embarrassing moment such as screaming in the bathroom and make me feel like that was okay, that it was just something that needed to be done, something than maybe others have done too.You truly have a gift and I am so honored that I got to take this journey with you, as a beta reader as an information giver and best of all as a friend! I love you hard River and will never forget what you have given me.You are a master at your craft and a beautifully caring person who puts so much care into her writing. I just cannot express how incredibly well written, powerful and breathtakingly beautiful this story truly is.With Reclaimed you’ve just nailed it! Like holy wow! Looking at how Kadence and Nix have a love so strong they can conquer it all; even something that can be so detrimental to a marriage, having a family can be tough, things can change but thanks to you…you and your brilliant characters you showed us that things can also get better, people can come back, maybe even returning maybe a bit stronger.Lady you amazed me, never did I think that something I deemed as ugly, something I always wanted to never ever admit to as having lived through would now make me feel like saying... ‘Hell yeah! I had post partum and I survived and I’m a better for it!’ that maybe it was worth it.You did that!You made me feel it was a struggle worth embracing, worth admitting, worth talking about, maybe being something I’m actually proud of overcoming. River you did that for me with this incredibly realistic, taboo of a little story that I will connect with on a deeper level for the rest of my being. I am bursting with excitement for the world to experience Reclaimed.Such a perfect title for all which it stands for…Reclaiming love, Reclaiming self worth, Reclaiming happiness, Reclaiming family…Reclaiming joy and finally Reclaiming yourself!Oh and best of all Reclaiming SEX…. River Savage style. Bust out the spare panties ladies of the book-loving world because you will need them!I’m talking Nix, I’m talking dirty, I’m talking HEAVEN!HOLY Shnookerdookies! Does this little novella pack a sexual punch! Nothing beats a dry spell like a ton of hotter than hades beyond scoville scale sex Savage style. Nix and Kadence are sure to leave you gaping like a jealous voyeur at the insane sex scenes River has penned this time around…. holy panty changes needed! Make up sex really is the best! And Nix and Kadence more than make of for the months they missed out!In the end River all I can say again is thank you, for turning my dark and making it light!Your friend always,Gilly xox

Highest, Darkest and Lowest!!!!!Trying to find the words to start…….to sit here looking at the screen, thinking where do you start to review something that you realise is very VERY close to the heart and personal not only to yourself but for many female and male readers (if you admit your there)..First I am going to say thanks you to River for even touching on this subject, you made me cry, you made me get angry, you made me think ‘That was me!’ and you made me think my poor poor Man! To the point that we actually talked about a taboo subject that has been left for 20yrsSecondly, To the gorgeous lady this book is dedicated to, Gillian. You my girl must have bled your heart and soul and for that, when I speak for most ladies who have read this, Thank You……Thank you for having the courage to re-live the feelings because its someplace I never want to be myself again…..We are back with the Knights Rebels but this time it’s a short story about Nix and Kadence and their gorgeous family. River starts us back off taking us to a place deep down with Kade, she’s had the baby but finds herself in a place where no woman expects herself to be and that most precious time in her life.It’s not all hearts and flowers, it’s a road that River manages to take us down, putting that much detail into her feelings when she writes that she takes you along for the ride. You will laugh, cry and even get angry, you will want to shout at Kadence through the book and yell at her that that’s not who you are, because we’ve been there. The one thing you do get, is the love this couple share for each other.“I’ve watched Nix bring you to your highest, hold you in your darkest, save you from your lowest and he has never faltered.”I love the way we also get a chance to how Nix deals with it, how his reactions and feelings are because we don’t always see and want to listen to that side.We also get a little introduction to possible future stories that are coming are way, especially for my Beau.River has brought a novella to us that cannot be missed. Please, please if you are reading this and you have never read a book about the Knights Rebels, you don’t know what your missing.

In this little addition to the series, we are back with Nix and Kadence from book 1.They are married, happy and have a new baby.It is short, but managed to pack quite an emotional punch.Now I am not a person who likes my HEA messed with after a book is done.But here, it is so much messed with, more like serving to portray the love that Nix feels toward Kadence, and his determination to get them back to where they should be.It is hard reading at times (especially as a person who suffered from PND after the birth of my second child, and did not ask for help till the baby was 6 months old) It can be easy to forget how this issue can affect the husband too.I loved being in Nix's head so much, seeing his fears, his love, his worry. And the struggle Kadence felt, the guilt, the pain, the anguish was very real.Yet, even after Kadence sought help, and was on the way to recovering, Nix struggled, he had lost his confidence and was struggling. There is no easy fix for this.All in, a great short read, that just made me fall in love with Nix more

This book follows the birth of Nix and Kadence's daughter Harlow in Affliction, we see the struggles that having a new born take on the relationship between Husband and Wife, family and friends.Kadence is struggling with being a new mom, feels that she's not being a good mother or wife and cant speak of it to anyone for fear that she is failing. Nix is struggling to connect with his wife, keep his family together and take care of club business, he knows Kadence needs help but she wont ask for it, he finds himself having to push her to breaking point to get her understand his concerns.Please get your copy and watch Kadence and Nix find their way back. This book is beautifully written and you can feel the struggles they are facing and the love they still have for each other, please if you are reading this book and find yourself in a similar situation please ask for help were all only human after all and need help

When I read a MC series I always find myself falling for the next character more than the last... It was the way with Sy, how could you not? However... This book solidifies my appreciation for Nix once again.at least until Jesse shows up ÃÃ,°Y~Reading the teasers that River post on her FB page and knowing what the story was about, I thought I'd have a hard time connecting with what Kadence was going through. I don't know anything about it and I've never known anyone to go through it etc... In the beginning I did struggle a bit, but then I got it from a different angle... Feeling alone when you're surrounded by people who love you coz u think they don't understand, like you don't know what ur doing... And from then on, watching Nix step up and be everything she needed... His strength blew me away. It's characters like him that ruin me for real life... #foreveralone lolI saw a lot of people mention they cried... So I waited, sometimes I am a bit of a crier... And it came alright, but where I least expected it...I just read straight threw to the very end and when I read that little quote about giving up, I just lost it lolWell played River Savage, well played.